So as of now my heart isn’t in hospice or at least not at the moment. It really left it the day dad died. I knew I would have a hard time with it anyway, but it’s progressively getting more difficult.

So now I am at a crossroads again. Where to go, what to do. What is the right choice? Moving out of the only home I’ve known for the last 18 years, signed up for a project management class, finished an HR one. I feel torn in so many ways and yet I just keep moving forward. I don’t even know if where I am moving is forward. It may be backward and it may be wrong.

I really don’t know anymore what to do.