I looked at my last post date and it was a month ago. How does a month go by so quickly? What work have I really gotten done? I had another month added on to my leave and yet I’m still here in this emotional wonderland.
Why wonderland? If you look at Alice in Wonderland, she is in a crazy mixed up world. A world that doesn’t quite make sense. A world in which she needs to discover herself, and how to “escape” or “get back home.” It’s a place full of twists and turns and confusion. She’s not sure who she can trust or what she should do. She tries everything. Follows someone who seems to know their way. Listens to someone who seems wise. Tries to make friends and adapt.
It just came into my mind that this time has been that for me. These past three years have been a time of growth and change, adapting to a new environment, confusion, wondering where I am, who I am and what my purpose is. I feel like I will always have times in my life where I’m questioning these things. Next really is to figure out what I need to do get to my next path.
As the caterpillar asked, “who are you?”
Side note: started preparing for next trip. 🙂
Haven’t been writing or updating this for awhile … it’s been busy here. Done a bit of local (USA) traveling. DC and then Shenandoah. Beautiful in their own rights. More photos later and updates. Just don’t want to forget my travels. 🙂
I’m leaving some space today. I have constantly filled my time lately. And just decided to leave a gap. To take a break, a breath, just sigh for a moment.
To enjoy the peace and quiet.
Why do we constantly fill our days with noise? Are we afraid of what our minds will say when they’re free to fill that space? Do we hate the quiet? Are we afraid of what thoughts will arise?
While I was an art major, we talked of negative space almost as much as positive space. Negative space is the space between. It is that pause in music before it builds to the powerful chorus or crescendo. That moment in a play or musical where it gives time to let things sink in to the audience. Fill the space with thought. To let the weight of the words that were just said, hang in the air.
To pause, to think, to ponder, to rest.
In art, they talk of the way the eye moves across and through a piece. Negative space allows the viewer’s eye to rest. It gives shape and meaning to things going on in the forefront. It gives borders and boundaries. It’s not nothing. It’s as important as the positive space. And ironically, although called negative, it’s not negative at all. It’s necessary. It’s what allows us to appreciate what’s going on in the composition, in the piece of artwork itself.
All I know is that today was not long enough and tomorrow will be back to the grind, but for today…… Taking a deep breath…… Letting my mind rest in the pauses and breaks before life comes back to a full crescendo.
When all reason and logic fail… Look up. There there is beauty beyond all understanding. How these things form in this what seems to be endless sky. They feel so close and yet are so far away. And beyond them are universes we can’t see with our naked eyes. Whole collections of stars and rocks beyond our wildest imaginations. Such beauty that we don’t get to experience on a daily basis… Unless you’re an astronaut or astrologer (or some kid working at the astronomy tower lol).
My mind is blown away. I stood in that field with the wind whipping around and just feeling alive and blessed. That no matter what may come or what choices I may make, there is a peace that passes all understanding that I can cling to and hope for. And only when I live in fear and doubt, do I miss seeing it’s bigness, muchness, and overwhelming joy.
Relish the “small” things like a crazy beautiful sky with clouds and rain and snow and sun. Fill your life with beauty and see it in the mundane. In the lives that surround you… In the words from a friend… In the melody of a song that just picks your spirits up. Don’t take those things for granted that seem miniscule, for all those things added up can make a difference in your life. Speak truth and beauty in another person’s life and put yourself and your wants aside.
Every day is a new opportunity to grow and change and be better… To be the best version of yourself you can be.
Live a life that is worth leaving behind for someone else to learn from.
Breathing in that peace….
It’s amazing to me when the sun and moon can both be seen. I know that the moon is always there just waiting its turn but sometimes it boldly shows itself, and you catch glimpses of beauty that makes you quiet. There were geese that flew across and landed in the lake while I was standing there. Just amazing little moments.
Take it in… Whatever it is… Whatever gives you joy… Whatever speaks to your heart… Whatever connects you and grounds you to your soul and all that makes you appreciate life and beauty… Hold onto those things… Breathe them in and cling onto them… Don’t assume they are ordinary moments… We shouldn’t dwell in the mundane…. Weep a little… Weep a lot… But continue to move on and to love and to open your eyes to all the beauty that is around you.
Even though I am not ready for this winter just quite yet…. It was such a beautiful wonderous world that awaited when I woke on Monday…. Truly a magical sight to behold and I was so happy to get to enjoy it.
Feeling a bit nostalgic for Narnia….