list life…

My counselor put me on short term disability as of Monday.  I just can’t function any more at work … at least not in a healthy way. I can’t heal because I’m still in it. Also, taking care of a couple other health issues…

So in this down time, I need to do self – care. My friend suggested I make a list of things I want to accomplish. Which thinking about it is something I do. Haha

So here it is…  follow up with nurse practioner about knees, check, finish up my ear piercings,  check (considering I never had any until last year, this is a huge deal… I now have 5) the main lobe piercings are poppies . They are what I was drawn to, and of course they were poppies which is what I called my dad.  Research masters programs and funding and schools,  sky dive, glass blowing class or pottery class, drive somewhere and stay overnight,  possibly Canada or grand canyon ,  read some of the gmat book, I might list more, but I think this is good for now 🙂 

List on … 



What does it mean when someone is fearless? Without fear. That doesn’t take courage, because that exists only when there is fear and we face it anyway. It takes moral and mental strength to be courageous.

Fearlessness is audacious. Although they almost use fearless and courageous synonymously, they really aren’t the same. 

One is by definition facing fear and doing it anyway and the other is to have a lack of fear. Which one requires more conviction? Which one would you admire in someone? 

It would be amazing to have no fear but would it really require much mental thought and growth? Would there be a wisdom that comes with it? Would there be a certain arrogance and immaturity that goes along with fearlessness? 

Just something I have been thinking about. Trying to move and move on in life. Figuring out the next steps. Facing fear and continuing on in spite of or because of it. Each day is a gift; and to waste it being afraid or in regret or in anger “sucks” as my friend said to me today lol. 

I may not be fearless, but I can see fear and face it. I will learn and grow and flourish. I will hope for the best in all situations and accept the worst. I will not let it keep me from realizing my dreams. Life is for living fully!


So after getting back from my Europe trip, I signed up for a grant writing class on the 4th of June. Because the best thing to do after a vacation is signing up for a class. 

It may not be towards a Master’s Degree quite yet, but it’s definitely a step in the right direction. 

passport shall be utilized…

Finally booked a trip overseas. Lol
Been a long time coming but the world is finally open unto me and it shall be explored!!

My friend and I went and figured out the flights and destinations and have booked the tickets.  Now we just need to do the accommodations and the train tickets.  But I can’t wait. 

It’s scary and nerve-racking but so exciting!! 

I feel I should be more eloquent with my entry about this since this has been coming since last year.  I need to find my checklist of all the things I wanted to accomplish and see how many have actually gotten checked off.  I think the only one that hasn’t was going back to school for my masters and reading Walden lol.

…..  Hmmmmm….  Where is that list?  Lol

OK passport….  Get ready to get your stamps!!

Update : just checked the date on when I received my passport June 8 lol


Got my first flight booked in  a long long time…  So excited..  One month away.  It’s just a short trip..  But for so many reasons not just a small feat.  I can’t wait and I’m just going to enjoy all the opportunities life is offering.