once you have tasted….



baffling sky…


When all reason and logic fail…  Look up.  There there is beauty beyond all understanding.  How these things form in this what seems to be endless sky.  They feel so close and yet are so far away.  And beyond them are universes we can’t see with our naked eyes.  Whole collections of stars and rocks beyond our wildest imaginations.  Such beauty that we don’t get to experience on a daily basis… Unless you’re an astronaut or astrologer (or some kid working at the astronomy tower lol).

My mind is blown away.  I stood in that field with the wind whipping around and just feeling alive and blessed.  That no matter what may come or what choices I may make,  there is a peace that passes all understanding that I can cling to and hope for.  And only when  I live in fear and doubt,  do I miss seeing it’s bigness,  muchness,  and overwhelming joy. 
Relish the “small”  things like a crazy beautiful sky with clouds and rain and snow and sun.  Fill your life with beauty and see it in the mundane.  In the lives that surround you…  In the words from a friend…  In the melody of a song that just picks your spirits up.  Don’t take those things for granted that seem miniscule, for all those things added up can make a difference in your life.  Speak truth and beauty in another person’s life and put yourself and your wants aside.
Every day is a new opportunity to grow and change and be better…  To be the best version of yourself you can be. 

Live a life that is worth leaving behind for someone else to learn from.

Breathing in that peace…. 


Got my first flight booked in  a long long time…  So excited..  One month away.  It’s just a short trip..  But for so many reasons not just a small feat.  I can’t wait and I’m just going to enjoy all the opportunities life is offering.

taboo subjects…

I don’t talk about God much but feeling somewhat distant from the one who created all.  Whether anyone believes in him or not that reads this…  I do.  Sometimes I’m afraid of offending people,  so I don’t talk about faith.  But this is supposed to be my place to have a written record of my life.  It’s been officially one year since I started this.  Since I started this aspect of this journey of my life.  I’m so excited to see where I can go,  what I can do,  what I’m capable of…   

Prayer isn’t supposed to be a last resort,  it’s supposed to be a constant conversation.  An ongoing dialogue.  And yet there is this tendency to save it for last.  When I feel scared or lonely or worried,  if I haven’t been keeping this inner conversation,  I feel guilty coming to a place of prayer.  I should be joyful in all things,  but because I’m not connected to him and my faith,  I feel lost and empty. 

So I am taking this anniversary to remind myself of where I was a year ago.  And what I was preparing to do.  And going to take some time to reevaluate my faith and what it means to me.  When I feel afraid I will look to him who knows my heart above all and can heal it in ways no one else can.

Be blessed with each moment and whatever lessons can be learned from them.  Learn to forgive,  to love,  to let go of anger and hatred,  to trust and hope.