song of the day…

Don’t know why this song connected with me today, but it did 🙂

https://youtu.be/PUdyuKaGQd4

passport shall be utilized…

Finally booked a trip overseas. Lol
Yay!!! 
Been a long time coming but the world is finally open unto me and it shall be explored!!

My friend and I went and figured out the flights and destinations and have booked the tickets.  Now we just need to do the accommodations and the train tickets.  But I can’t wait. 

It’s scary and nerve-racking but so exciting!! 

I feel I should be more eloquent with my entry about this since this has been coming since last year.  I need to find my checklist of all the things I wanted to accomplish and see how many have actually gotten checked off.  I think the only one that hasn’t was going back to school for my masters and reading Walden lol.

…..  Hmmmmm….  Where is that list?  Lol

OK passport….  Get ready to get your stamps!!

Update : just checked the date on when I received my passport June 8 lol

booked…

Got my first flight booked in  a long long time…  So excited..  One month away.  It’s just a short trip..  But for so many reasons not just a small feat.  I can’t wait and I’m just going to enjoy all the opportunities life is offering.

Life’s Barrage

So I had to get a new car. My car was on it’s last legs (wheels) and it was time. Bittersweet because that car was my “dream” car. And I loved it, but it just couldn’t make it anymore. Also, finished another book. Which I realize wouldn’t be a feat of any proportion to most normal people, but to me with my mind being all over the place it was really something that surprised me. I enjoyed it and didn’t want to put it down until it was finished. Which meant I was bleary eyed the next day but feeling happy I stuck with it and was absorbed in it rather than my mind flying all over the place.

Also, took a trip again to the beach alone. Which for someone who fears that sort of thing was a huge deal. It was so peaceful and I didn’t want to leave. And am thinking about going back. It was a long drive there and back (the traffic jam… parking lot on the way back didn’t help) but I feel undaunted by that. I think I’m even going to grab a small breakfast alone and read some of another book before going. These things which most people take for granted are huge hurdles for me. I really feel sometimes I have social anxiety because I get so nervous, like the feeling a lot of people get when they have stage fright or going to get a shot. Even thinking about it right now makes me feel nervous. But I can feel confidence coming in spite of it all. I really am under the belief that if there is something that is difficult for me, I want to try to overcome it. It’s scary and makes me all panic-stricken but it is worth all the trouble in the end because there is freedom. 

All these things are leading up to me traveling alone and hopefully a million more doors opening. There is a trip I’m looking into, it would be working as a volunteer, but I think it would feel that the trip was worth something and also it would be a good way to get my feet wet. These things are things most people conquer in their early 20’s, but I wasted those with other things. It’s never too late right? There is another 5k that I’m interested in coming up after my second one. LOL I’m going to make a career of doing 5k’s. But for me constantly having that goal works for me. Especially right now. The next one is in 2 and a half weeks. I can’t believe it. How does time go by so quickly? And yet so slowly at the same time? It’s that perspective thing rearing it’s ugly head again. 

Anyone up for skydiving?

Missing Element

Somehow I forgot to post this. It was also part of my excursion this past weekend. So much beauty, so little time. Although, I feel as though I need more ideas of places to travel.

 

Moving things along more quickly than I expected.

After the lull last week so to speak (company in town), I have accomplished two things: PASSPORT FILED!!!! and applied for first job.

There was a bit of a debacle in the passport filing. Went to the first location, documents in hand, old expired passport, passport photo, and found out that I needed an appointment?!?!?!? Why was that not listed on the the things I needed at that location? So then I called the Clerk of Courts and found out I needed checks to pay for the whole deal, so I had to go back home. For someone who has a mild bout with social anxiety every now and again, this was throwing a wrench into the equation because I had already prepared my mind to handle it a certain way. So when other things arise, it’s hard for me to get back on track. However, I persevered and found the Clerk of Courts office which may I say was in a less than “comforting” area. I saw the amount of cars and the location and had to battle with my mind to go ahead and enter. But I did it and there was no line….whoever heard of that happening? But the rest was not smooth sailing. Apparently, the paperwork I had was not updated even though I had just filled it out from the government’s website. Pay attention, the government’s passport documents are not updated (maybe as I write this they are now lol) but needless to say, I had to fill out entirely new paperwork. Still, there was no onslaught of people coming in and I was able to go right back up to the window and finish. There were a few other minor hiccups, but luckily I brought my expired passport which they were able to use instead.

And today, found a job that would be great for me. Part time and also relates to the field in which I want to get my degree. I hope my cover letter and resume make it through to eyes that need to see it. As we all know that is being said on a wing and a prayer. But who knows, the powers that be may shine upon me. It would be a great opportunity to get my feet wet, also may even count as course credits for the degree and open other doors. If nothing else, I updated my cover letter and resume. Fingers Crossed.

Two days in a row for me to challenge myself and every day feeling more excited at the possibilities of what life could have to offer. (Now if I just could win that million dollars in the lottery I never play…. )

 

Passport photo

I have gotten a couple of.goals accomplished this week. One of which was getting my passport photo. Now I just need to file the documents. Family is in town this weekend but goal next week is to get that done. And then will hopefully have my passport soon. Where I will go or when is still in the realm of possibilities but at least I’m one step closer.